nai vasage ne piro nai banse moccer.
nai saare.
i just want something i can never have
everything i want, i can never have
it's ironic
and it seems like the nighttime is perfect for this because everyone i love - i upset them with it
(your love is toxic) and though i might wish for stars and steady relief (hell, you'd take a single moment) somehow it seems as if the world turns on its side and tells me -
no
you are not welcome here
(poison)
it's like the world comes crashing down around my ears, fading in and out and my surroundings are deathdefying and heartbreaking
everyone i love is out of reach
l. n. d.
everyone. i. can. never. have.
every illusion i held broken - i'm not what i thought i was, what i need to be and i never will be.
and i'm going to have to watch them all disentangle themselves from me with a sorry smile and walk away with their newfound love.
(but everyone just thinks i need a love/dom/friend closer)
(when really no one knows what i need - and i hope they never ask)